JK가 NYC에서 SF까지 자동차로 횡단을 한다며 나에게 좋은 음악을 추천해 달라고 하였다.

음악이 담긴 하드 디스크는 미국에 놓고 와서 오랜만에 집에 있는 씨디들을 뒤졌는데 손에 먼지는 많이 묻었지만 기분이 참 좋았다.
그 과정에서 몇 가지 앨범은 두 개씩 가지고 있다는 것과 가장 최근에 구입한 레코드가 원더걸스의 2DT라는 것을 깨달았다.
JK에게는 두 가지 버전의 앨범을 만들어 주었다.

아래가 그 중 하나.
언제나 느끼는 거지만 선곡하는 것보다 어려운건 곡 순서를 정하는 것 같다.

1. The Bobby McGees: L.O.V.E.
2. Camera Obscura: Let's Get Out of This Country
3. Cornelius: Windy Hill (Originally by The Pastels)
4. Ben Lee: Cigarettes Will Kill You
5. The Softies: Write it Down
6. The Sea Urchins: Pristine Christine
7. Pipas: Tout Va Bien
8. Heavenly: C is the Heavenly Option
9. Vampire Weekend: Walcott
10. Cat Power: Naked If I Want To
11. Frente!: Bizarre Love Triangle
12. Bishop Allen: Click, Click, Click, Click
13. Dyroin: Hunangsdropar
14. The School: I Want You Back
15. Cats on Fire: Higher Grounds
16. Afternoon Naps: The Day We Started
17. Belle and Sebastian: String Bean Jean
18. A Smile and a Ribbon: Book Cover
19. The Smiths: This Charming Man
20. The Brady Bunch: Merry Go Round
21. The Field Mice: If You Need Someone
22. My Little Airport: Edward, Had You Ever Thought That The End Of The World Would Come On 20.9.01?
23. Fishmans: むらさきの空から
24. Young Marble Giants: Salad Days

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간밤에 부모님과 영화 '시'를 보았습니다.

밴쿠버 국제 공항에서 또 비행기를 기다리고 있다.

공항에 있는 대부분의 상점의 점원들이 아시아계라는 것이 신기하다.

going to LA (after 5 hours)!

스승의 날에 쓴 편지에 REM의 노래 가사를 인용해서 답장을 써 주신 선생님... 어찌 감동적이지 않을 수 있을까.

some quotes,

"The world is cold and cruel, and it is all we have. There is no god in this machine."

- A chalk writings on the wall of the Memorial Library.

"Stop celebrating in front of me!"

- A girl yelled at a bunch of family on campus who are celebrating a daughter's graduation..

간밤에 냉동떡을 해동하기 위해 이전에 본 냉동떡 해동 매뉴얼을 참고하여 전자렌지를 이용했다.
위쪽에 담겨 있던 떡은 터지고 아랫쪽에 있던 떡은 여전히 차가운 기현상이 발생하였습니다.
수습코자 기름에 떡볶이 소스를 넣어 볶아 먹으려고 하였다. 뜨겁게 달구어진 기름이 약간 녹은 떡에서 배어나온 수분과 반응하여 기름은 사방팔방 튀고 소스는 엉겨 붙고, 떡은 타고...
결과적으로 얻은 것은 타버린 떡볶이와 (하지만 여전히 맛있던!)
약 12시간이 지난 후까지 은은하게 방 안에 맴도는 떡볶이 향...


냉동떡 해동 매뉴얼

계획대로 일이 진행되어 괜히 여유를 부리고 있다.

문득 옛 친구들과 연락을 이어볼까 하는 생각이 들었다가 사라졌다.

이미 옛날이지만 취향이 가장 맞았던 그 때의 친구들은

대부분 그 때 그대로 땅에 발 붙여가며 살고 있는 것 같다.

나만 붕 떠있는 기분. 어딘가로 떠내려가는 것 같다.

그런데 무얼 위해서?

이번에 서울 가면 친구들의 공연을 되도록 많이 봐야지.

Today's fortune cookie says,

We must always have old memories and young hopes.

요즘 부쩍 차를 사고 싶어졌다.

가장 큰 이유는 교외에 있는 목장에 말을 타러 다니고 싶어서...

말을 타려고 차를 사다니.

엉뚱한 느낌.

하지만 말을 사는 것에 더 많은 경제력이 필요한 것도 사실이고

더 직접적으로는 엄마한테 말을 사달라고 할 수는 없는 노릇이다.

그래서 별로 필요도 없는 차를 살까말까 괜히 고민하는 페이퍼의 자체 마감일 전날 밤.

기다림 끝에 새로 산 맥북에어가 도착했다.

그런데 왜 집에서 인터넷이 안되는걸까? 학교에서는 되는데...

무선 랜 보안 설정을 가지고 씨름하다가 결국 포기하고

랩탑 두 개를 번갈아 가면서 페이퍼를 마무리하는 중.

빨리 끝내자!

오늘 아침도 최근 발견한 최상의_컨디션을_위한_루틴*을 엄수하여

* 7시 기상, 8시 샤워, State St.의 스타벅스에서 구입한 아이스 그란데 커피 + 토스트한 플레인 베이글을 들고 State Historical Library의 남쪽에 위치한 책상 맨 끝에 앉았다.

그 순간, 랩탑 어댑터를 집에 놓고 왔다는 것을 발견.

도서관에서 맥북을 빌려서 어댑터만 연결해 쓰고자 했으나 사진이 있는 ID가 두 개 있어야 한다며 거절당함.

남은 배터리 시간은 3시간 남짓.

I gotta do it anyway.

Last night I dreamt about my mom.
She bought a bicycle made by Brompton, which costs ₩1,570,000.
She was riding that bike at the parking lot of Apkujeong Hyundai department store.
The bike was not a minivelo but more like BMX with larger wheels.
It was smooth as Lexus.
When I came down to some video game spot located in the basement, i saw some caucasian girl in green hoodies and black pants. She was sneaking beside of some guy, kicked his head without notice,  and walked away into the crowds.
At that moment, a lout-y traditional music concert was over.
I met a guy with red t-shirt, who came from the city I am in, at the staircase.
He said he'd sleep in his car. I said I had a house and said good bye.
I thought he may think I am gay, so that was the proof to show I am not.
Then I went to somewhere with a guy I am with.

i think i am so uncompetative or noncompetative person, however sometimes, when i think about a few leading figures, i suddenly enter into my own rivalry.

it is sad, the imagine is cruel.

i overslept this morning by re-sleeping after had a can of pepsi.

Seemingly impossible tasks in earlier this week are getting done one by one.

I am proud of that, but feel so sad at the same time.

Dearly wish some rest.

the greatest gentle teenager lose his pace for the reckless planning of the future.
an arrogance metamorphosed to rashness, an expediency turned to drab stagnation, and the dullness were marked as the most fickle emotion.
wrong prospective for the future led him spending priceless time in the least pronounced way.
mind you, these songs had written in the far past, even before you recognize the existence of that school of thoughts.
however, see this great power of self-rearranging cognition.
it evades every possible dissonance, which may cause guilty or self-abhorrence.
sustaining brittle and picky self, dragging into unwarranted participation.

I am shallow and I miss almost everything in the past.

Came upon Al in front of microbiology building.

We were both riding bicycles and about to park.

"Hey, how are you?"

"Good, you came early today?"

"Yeah..."

"It's just a kidding."

"I just get out of house because I was hungry."

"Did you bring anything to eat?"

"Yes, I just grab some waffles on the way, they are in my bag. Are you living around here?"

"Yes, I live by the stadium, about one mile away."

"We have to talk about your research design."

"Oh, yeah, but I am currently working on final papers. So, I will send you after that."

"Sure. Are you staying here during summer?"

"Yes, except for one month."

"Which month?"

"I'll go out of this town on May 15, and travel around LA, Singapore, and Korea. Then back here around late June."
"Are you going to ICA?"
"Yes."

"Cool, same here."

"Alright."

"See you."

"See you."

the school - i want you back

Once upon a time I thought everything would turn out fine, just like lines in books
Now I see Im caught, caught up in a tangled web
All the things you said I bought, like a fool Id shout it loud, I dont care what they say, and now its clear that all of it was make believe

Now and then I think, now and then I think too much about you in my sleep, about you in my sleep

And when the dreams have all come back and settled down
And the stupid nightmares hang around
with the visions of the one youre with now
I know I tried to get you out my broken mind
And to leave the past we have behind
But its no use wishing now for things like that, I want you back

Well I really truly tried in the way youd want me to, and never do you harm
I see it couldnt last cos of what I said to you
And you knew it all along, you couldnt have just said to me I dont care about it, no you couldnt say Hey girl just leave it all behind

Well now and then I think, now and then I think too much about you in my sleep, about you in my sleep

And when the dreams have all come back and settled down
And the stupid nightmares hang around
with the visions of the one youre with now
I know I tried to get you out my broken mind
And to leave the past we have behind
But its no use wishing now for things like that, I want you back

---
listen to their ep 'let it slip' here
for more information, go to http://theschoolband.co.uk/

자유롭게 날아다니는 새 말고
어딘가를 향해 달려가는 타조가 되라는 말을 들었다.
왠지 억울하지만 이성적으로 생각하면 맞는 말이다.
받아들이자.
아스팔트 위를 달리다가 자동차에 치이는 한이 있더라도
일단 어딘가로 달려가야 되는 것 같다.
그러기 위해서는 어딘가 갈 곳이 필요하고
그러다 보면 누군가 나를 볼 것이다.
그리고 이왕이면 초원 위를 달리는 것이 좋겠지.

For the 2008 the Mountain Goats's album "Heretic Pride", John Darnielle wrote descriptions of each song on the album for Jeffrey Lewis to illustrate.